Let It Get Messy

We are officially out of our St Martins home on June 14th. Last week the kids and I shifted from our regular homeschool/work/home life schedule, to packing, organizing and cleaning.

We have finished our math curriculum for the year which feels like such a wonderful accomplishment and has created space on our schedule to do other tasks. We will also be taking a less structured approach to homeschool for the month of June. Our routine has been very comforting since moving to a new province so shifting out of that last week, felt incredibly difficult and messy.

We got some things done but we were fumbling to find our groove. This week is so different so far and I am realizing that we needed to go through that messy week of trying to figure out how to accomplish different tasks, to find our groove this week. Things kinda needed to fall apart and be imperfect for us to be able to find out how to move through packing to move, as a family.

This is painting a beautiful picture for me, of what all change and growth looks and feels like.

I am wondering how many times in the past, I have turned back in the phase of messy and discomfort, to what I knew, instead of allowing everything to fall apart and figuring out how to put it back together differently?

Last week the kids and I needed to figure out how to begin making progress on our packing and we tried, I prayed, we took breaks, we sat in the mess and we continued to try. This week I got clarity on how to best lead the kids and guide them in their work alongside me. I needed the imperfection of last week, to figure it out, I needed to allow myself to be uncomfortable so I could do what needed to be done.

What is something you need to do?

Maybe you don’t have a specific deadline like I have but you could set one for yourself.

We are half way through the year and over the last 6 months I have been thinking about goal setting and achievement. I have been setting goals for myself, accomplishing some and missing the mark on others. I have been analyzing why I am moving forward with some and not making the progress I desired in other areas. I have been trying to do all of this pondering about goals without judging myself because I know that wont help me to grow. One theme I keep coming back to, is that messy action is better than no action and in the messy I figure it out. Doing nothing creates so much frustration and paralyzing fear in me but action creates motivation. Action is where the momentum is built. Action is where the mistakes are made and the lessons are learned and the progress is earned.

I am in the middle of my own messes, I have goals and I am just figuring out how to make them a reality. As I work towards them through the mess, I am becoming the woman I have wanted to be, I am growing up and this is creating a lot of joy and fulfilment within me and bringing me back to the mess to do the consistent work everyday.

I am grateful for the mess and I want to encourage you, to keep working through it, something is building within you because of that mess and that is good.

The mess requires that we raise the internal thermostat on our lives. This is good, when we work through things that are hard, we see that we are capable of more and our capacity increases. Our belief about ourselves changes. We need to become a better version of ourselves to rise up to the task and challenge. The overwhelm is an answer to prayer.

2 Thessalonians 3 : 13

As for the rest of you, dear brothers and sisters, never get tired of doing good.