How To Get Through A Tough Day In Quarantine
I am in the middle of week 9 of quarantine (while writing this) and I am having a day where I feel overwhelmed. I feel unable to do the day. Tyler took Luke for a motorcycle ride and Lizzy is watching TV and I don’t know what to do with myself. I am tired. I don’t want to complain or give up. I just don’t know how I feel. I hop into a YouTube video by Sadi Robertson and she starts talking about God’s calling on each of our lives.
Hineni is the word and it means, Here I am Lord.
The song, Here I am Lord was on my heart and mind early in quarantine and so I would sing it to Lizzy and then she wanted to listen to it as she fell asleep. The song fills the house each night and plays until morning.
Here I am Lord, I will go if you lead me.
What to do on a day when I feel lost?
If you seek God you will find Him.
At the beginning of quarantine I also started stepping outside my lead Bible study and searching scripture on my own for words I felt God had placed on my heart.
Expectant
Delivered
Joy
I have a lot of friends on social media who are pregnant right now or have given birth during quarantine, I could not stop thinking about these expectant mothers, who no matter what would deliver their babies and experience joy in the middle of a pandemic.
So I wrote those words down and started searching scripture for verses with these words.
Expectant
Mark 11:24, NIV: "Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours."
I pray with expectancy that the God of the universe, is working to end the virus, is able to end the virus and will end the virus. This mindset, while sometimes wavering because I am human, provides me with joy and peace as I wait on the Lord. It allows me to be still and know that He is God. It allows me to do the best each day with what has been entrusted to my care.
Delivered
Isaiah 43:19 New International Version (NIV)
19 See, I am doing a new thing!
Now it springs up; do you not perceive it?
I am making a way in the wilderness
and streams in the wasteland.
When God works, He doesn’t repair things to the state they were before, He makes something new and better. He restores, resurrects and breathes new life. God is working in this season for our good, I choose to seek that daily even when it is so challenging. I choose right now, still in quarantine to live my life moving forward, differently, I have been changed for the better in this season, I have been made new through the salvation of Jesus.
Joy
Romans 15:3 ESV
May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, so that by the power of the Holy Spirit you may abound in hope.
Faith in action and hope in the Lord, lead to joy. My joy can not be rooted in my circumstances or even my feelings because those things are fleeting, it needs to be rooted in the promises of the Lord. This place of joy in the Lord can sometimes make me feel like I am floating on a cloud and other times it is uncomfortable. Refinement is a process that often puts some sort of pressure on the element that is being refined. The process is not always enjoyable but it often transforms the element into a more purposeful and new thing.
And, on a very hard day, I like to reflect on what God has brought me through, it helps me to trust He will bring me through today. It is amazing how far He has brought us, I can only try to imagine where we are going.
xoxo
Audrey
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